Being a mom who has been blessed to see her first priority on this earth is DIFFICULT work. I was telling Spencer yesterday, through tears of frustration, that being a stay-at-home mom is not a fairy tale. You don't get any payment that shows you did anything, and everything that you know you did that got undone wasn't appreciated by anyone (at least to the extent you thought it should have been). The world thinks we may have it easy, but if we are really doing what we're supposed to be, "easy" is not the word I'd use.
Deuteronomy 6: 4-7 commands us (parents, especially to moms, I think):
"Hear, O Israel:
The Lord our God, the Lord is one. You
shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might. And
these words that I command you today shall be on your heart.
You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall
talk of them when you sit in your house, and
when you walk by the way, and
when you lie down, and
when you rise."
With that job requirement in mind, maybe the world could see why it would be so tempting for me to not want to "rise" each morning. The battle between self and love for Christ is waging every minute. Did He leave any time out up there in that verse? Does He really mean ALL of the time?
Every morning I rise, every night my head hits the pillow in failure... but praise the Lord! - every screw up has already been forgiven and not only that (as if that isn't amazing enough), but is being used to teach me and sanctify me! Is there really any other way a mother, with such a burden as what's been commanded of her above, would not fall into the abyss of depression?
And then God gives you those random, fleeting moments when your children actually heard what you taught them! They confess their sins in order to find mercy; they ask forgiveness with genuine sorrow; they show kindness to their sibling without knowing that someone is watching; out of their mouths come Truth. Thank You, Father.
That must be a mother's paycheck.